Erin

Erin is my 5 year old daughter (or 5 and a half as she always reminds me - that extra half is very important!). Tonight when the house was quiet and I was the only one awake I heard her crying. She was in bed and had sore legs (over tired no doubt). I gave her some medicine and rubbed her legs and then she came down to the lounge with me and lay in my arms. My little girl has gotten big! I had a difficult pregnancy with her. I was lucky enough to get pregnant on our honeymoon with her. I was over the moon and totally ignorant about being pregnant when I got that faint positive line on the home pregnancy test in March 2000. A few weeks later I came crashing back to reality when I started to bleed and was told I was going to miscarry this little beating sac I saw on the screen. I was devastated and scared - scared of waiting to miscarry. What would it be like? Would it hurt? Thankfully the doctors were wrong and I did not miscarry. I had more scary moments throughout that pregnancy and was diagnosed later on with placenta previa. Erin was born on 1 Nov 2000 by planned c-section and weighed 5 lbs 9 oz. She was so tiny and so perfect. I couldn't believe that Dean and I had created this little miracle. Now here we are 5 and a half years later. She is an amazing child. So outgoing and happy. She can also be a little madam at times but what 5 year old girl isn't! Holding her in my arms tonight brought a lot of memories rushing back. While in some ways I long for it all to slow down and for her to stop growing up so fast I also can't wait to see what the future will bring for her - good things I hope. I hope she will always know how much I love her and how I will always be here for her. I love you Erin and no matter how big you get you will always be my little girl. Love Mummy. XXXXXXXXXX